Somewhere along the line I have become a cryer. Not the teary eyed, red-rimmed type. More along the lines of the boo-hoo, wailing type. It is not pretty. It mostly seems to occur in public places (boohoo) or in my car (less controlled-lol) with the occasional shower (wailing) cry. Mom and I had a long talk about the constant complaining and criticizing she has been heaping on me lately and I have some hope that we may turn a corner. I am also beginning to think the tumor could be exacerbating her behavior. Fingers crossed! I’m fighting so hard FOR her right now, that I simply don’t have the energy to fight WITH her. I’m limp with exhaustion.

She called me this afternoon to let me know that Dr. Wiruth (I am so effing sick of doctors!) is planning to discharge her. On a weekend again. Do they do this shit on weekends only because the B team case managers are on, and physical and occupational therapists don’t work on weekends? Seriously, wtf? It all seems so sketchy. I think that in addition to filing a discharge appeal, which I wish I would have known about last Sunday, I will contact an attorney. If anyone knows of a good malpractice attorney, please let me know, asap! Every time I try to grab the tiniest bit of rest, I am called back in to battle. Not with cancer, but with the very people who are supposed to help her get well. There is something so terribly wrong it is inconceivable.

I finally took some time and had lunch with a friend today. Lauri, you have NO idea how much I needed that! Plus the pho was wonderful. Pho always makes me feel better no matter what ails me. Dim sum is sounding kind of good too…..anyone? We had planned to go to dinner tonight and listen to some friends play at Monterey Court, but I physically could not drag my tired body into the shower and get moving. Instead, my wonderful husband, who also cleaned house today, is making me dinner, and that is priceless! This’ll be the first time I had two meals in one day in quite some time. Feeling spoiled!

The fortune I found on the counter when I walked in to Ha Long Bay today. That pretty much sums it up!