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The move

Most of Friday was spent at the house, cleaning and trying to get it ready for the new occupant. The countertop was miraculously installed just before I was ready to hire someone else. It. Looks. Amazing….If I do say so myself. Everything came together in a very elegant way without losing sight of the fact that the bathroom is in a house that was built in the 1930’s. We went out to dinner with friends for a much needed fun night. I haven’t been the best of company lately and friends who are willing to put up with me right now are much appreciated! It was a great diversion.

Saturday was the day of the big move, which in timing alone was a huge challenge. Tyler was at his apartment and up half the night packing up his belongings, so an early start was out of the question. Rick HAD to be home in time to watch the U of A/ ASU football game which started at 1:30. The window of opportunity was very small. A couple of Tyler’s friends thankfully came and helped-and how we needed them. So, at this point, the house looks like a tornado hit, with boxes and crap everywhere! This causes me great anxiety. That German need for order…… Tyler needs to decide what goes where and I can help from there. But the waiting for that is excruciating….

To top it all off, we have spent the last two nights there, due to the gas leak at our house. I think I may just have to brave the cold and sleep at home tonight. This camping out over there is hard. I can’t just sit still there. I need to be doing. Constantly. Mom’s cats are having to get to know Tyler’s cat, so the hissing and growling is interesting background noise. And seriously, the disarray is more than I can bear-but I know I’ve mentioned that already. Plus the reality/finality of this is sinking in.

The living room is starting to look like Tyler lives there. His artwork is up, some colorful pillows are on the couches (thank you to Patricia for picking some new ones up for us at ikea yesterday) and we have done some major de-cluttering. It’s sad to realize that all the flotsam and jetsam of our lives, that we happily collect and display, just winds up being clutter to those who come after us. It doesn’t matter if it’s cheap trinkets or expensive collectibles, it’s generally just junk to someone else. I’m sitting in my living room now, looking around trying to think of what our kids will do with our stuff (and feeling the need to further de-clutter here). I have collected minerals (rocks) for many years, which thankfully, can be introduced to any decor…… But some of it will be totally without meaning or value to them, no doubt. Even the style of art we collect is a matter of taste and in all likelihood my taste is different than yours or his or hers. I personally, do not care for anything southwestern or desert-y. I prefer something more modern or abstract. One of the many things that make us different from one another. The stacks of mom’s art that will not remain there is growing, but a surprising amount will stay, just re-arranged in a way that makes more sense to fresh eyes. When the tornado stage passes, I will take some photos and post them here.

Thursday, November 19th

On Saturday evening, the 14th, Tyler and I went to an art auction/fundraiser for SAAF. We went last year too. I absolutely LOVE silent auctions! Last year I bought 4 pieces, this year only three (I’m hoping it continues that way). This year I got in on the live auction as well and it was a blast! I totally drove the price up on several things, but didn’t win any of them. I don’t recommend this tactic unless you are ready to go through with it though. The auctioneer’s assistant came up and thanked me afterward…..

Tyler’s 26th birthday was on Sunday. It was the first of many special days where we will miss the early (usually very early) phone calls from my mom. No dinner with her. No special cake that she made. Needless to say, the day just didn’t feel quite right. We tried to start moving a few of Tyler’s things in, but after the first carload, we called it a day. We talked about all the days in the near future that will be tough. It still feels so unreal. The work at mom’s house is pretty much done except for the countertop. It’s turned in to quite the pain in the butt. I’m getting pretty close to ditching the guy who is supposed to do it and start elsewhere.

Monday morning found me at my desk with the list of items I need to take care of. I made all the calls to the VA, DFAS, Social Security, and got a start on the credit card companies. The good news is that I found my mom’s favorite necklace and her rings. Apparently I stuck them in her wallet the last TMC trip. I no longer kept it in my purse, so it didn’t even occur to me that I hadn’t looked there. I’m still having a hard time figuring out who her accountant is….if anyone knows, please let me know. I’ve been looking for previous years tax returns and have had no luck. The estate attorney put that on my list of things to do……

Here’s a random thing that happened. I know my mom’s good friends know the story of her younger sister, Gisela, who died the week before mom…Well, Gisela’s daughter sent me an email extending her condolences and trying to reconnect after all these years. A very sweet gesture, which makes me a little uncomfortable. Gisela’s actions basically tore the family apart over 50 years ago, and I keep asking myself how my mom would feel about this…..as with so many things, I am electing to not deal with it just yet. All I can think about are the family members who stood in solidarity with my mom…… If you just read that and it made no sense, never mind. It’s a long story that can not bear repeating at this late date.

Today sucked. I went to my regular dentist appointment. My oral hygiene habits are pretty damned amazing, it’s how I was raised. Brushing, flossing and inter proximal brushing every day. I found out today that I have major bone loss in one particular area and was referred to a periodontist. To me, Periodontists are for people who don’t take care of their teeth. Nothing showed up 18 months ago when I had my last x-rays. I have no idea how this can happen so quickly…..I’m taking this pretty hard-maybe overdoing it, but it bugs the hell out of me.

Later in the evening Tyler came over to have dinner with us and help us move something and we noticed a pronounced gas smell in the garage and called Southwest Gas. We have a gas leak. They don’t know where exactly, but we are in for some major plumbing issues. They turned the gas off to the house. So, no cooking, no showering, no heat. Seriously? Shit. Enough, already!